I long for a simplier time....1953

For a long time now, I have been fascinated with the idea of living my life in one solitary year, why, you ask? Because I think it would be neat, 1953 is a year which has always held much interest for me. I don't know why exactly, but I have long fantasized about living in 1953, no real special reason; I just want to live in 1953. I wasn't alive in 1953, I wasn't born till 25 years later, but I just think it would be amazing, if I could leave today, 2008 and go back to 1953. Taking nothing with me, leaving everything here, just so that I could start anew.

Now I know that the actual 1953 is probably much different then what I'm picturing in my head as I compose this but, seriously who wants to pay 4 dollars a gallon for gas, not me. There are enough things about today that drive me nutty, and believe me if you gave me the choice to stay here or go back to oh say 1953, I think I'd choose 1953.

Yes, I not that 1953 had it's problems like the fact that Joesph Stalin was still alive and that there was still segregation in the south. But there were also no computers, no internet, no cell phones, and no video games. Anyone who knows my well knows that I love my computer, internet and video games, but I think it would be well worth for me to give them up, if I could escape the today's new media, the rapists and the just plan old bad people there are in this world.

I know 1953 was not great or anything like that, but it's gotta be better that most of the stuff we put up with in today's world.

What were you doing two years ago today?

I remember very well what I was doing. Two years ago today my parents house flooded. Can you believe that it has been two years ago!? What a crazy day that was! When I have more time I'll write about that, but today I just wanted to write a little something as a reminder.

My mom refers to this day as an Ebenezer day. I went to www.bible.com and looked up Ebenezer. This is the verse/s that are pertinent to what she means:

1 Samuel 7:12:

^{10 -12} While Samuel was offering the sacrifice, the Philistines came within range to fight Israel. Just then God thundered, a huge thunderclap exploding among the Philistines. They panicked—mass confusion!—and ran helter-skelter from Israel. Israel poured out of Mizpah and gave chase, killing Philistines right and left, to a point just beyond Beth Car. Samuel took a single rock and set it upright between Mizpah and Shen. He named it "Ebenezer" (Rock of Help), saying, "This marks the place where God helped us." (taken from The Message Bible, emphasis mine).

We first learned about this concept in a Beth Moore Bible study, and it stuck! Today Mom was going to go down to the creek and get a rock to plant in her garden as a reminder of what God helped them overcome during that time. What a mighty God we serve! I don't know how we would have gotten through that time without a faith in the one true God or have a relationship with Jesus or without a church family who was always there to help. Thank you!

Thank you

Just want to say thank you to those of you who read our blog, and let us know. I know life is crazy hectic for most of us, and you taking the time to check in on us is much appreciated.

I'm so glad that this week is over, and that I'm starting a new schedule. I worked 58 hours for each of the last two weeks. Yes, I said 58 hours. I'm so looking forward to having some free time. :) Needless to say I'm not going anywhere on Tuesday. I told Mar that I'm only going to do what I want on Tuesday, nothing else! So if I feel like watching TV all day...that's what I'm going to do!

A couple of things to praise God for:
- Getting through the last two weeks!
- Possible job opportunity!
- Notice that the VA is going to pay for Mar's school this summer, and that the payment is nearly twice what we need to pay the bill!
- Mar's dad getting through emergency kidney surgery, and not having to be on dialysis.

Things to pray for:
- Either another part-time job for me (even though I need a break, we also need money) or find a full-time job.
- That Mar will do well in his classes.
- Mar's dad, Greg ~ healing for his kidneys. He's lost a lot of weight, is in pain at times, and hasn't been eating/being able to keep anything down.

Thanks, Friends!

I'm nervous

I'm working like crazy right now. Between this week and next, I'll have worked about 108 hours. It'll be a nice check, but the week after that I go back to working part-time. It will be nice to have more time off, but I'm getting nervous about how we're going to pay our bills. I've been looking in the paper everyday for something that might work, but haven't had much luck. A couple of months ago I submitted an application for an additional part-time job, but two days after I submitted the application I got a letter in the mail saying that they had filled the position. I have a feeling that someone had an "in".

I know I need to be relying on God more for the money we need to pay our bills. It's funny how He works. The last two weeks He has confirmed that He's in control, yet I still have moments where I panic. Two weeks ago I was worried about paying our rent. That day I got home from work, and there was the rent check sitting on the table. This week I was worrying about paying our bills in general. That same day I got home from work, and Marshall said that his GI Bill money was approved and is almost twice what we expected for this semester. How awesome is that?!

Please pray that I will be able to give this specific thing over to Him every time I start to panic.

I'm sick of the cold!

So . . . it is cold here in Ohio, and I'm sick of it!

Marshall and I were in Florida last week at this time, and I have to say that I wish we were back there right now. We had a great, relaxing time while we were gone. We got to see a lot of family. I'll write more about our trip later. We were suppose to come back on Monday, but our flight was canceled due to maintenance. Delta put us up in a hotel and gave us food vouchers since we didn't end up leaving until early Tuesday morning. The closer we got to OH the colder it got. Yuck! I'm ready for it to be warm!!!

Long Hours

The past 2 weeks I've worked over 46 hours both weeks, so needless to say I've been exhausted. The frustrating part is that in order for me to use the majority of my 1,000 hours before the end of June, I have to work over 46 hours every week from now until June 20th.

After I get home from work (which isn't any earlier then 5:30), fix dinner, and eat I'm ready for bed. Our house is a mess, laundry is done but not folded, the majority of junk I moved prior to our bathroom being remodeled is still sitting on the dining room table and floor, the stuff I tried organizing upstairs is still sitting out (which doesn't bother me as much because I don't have to look at it if I don't want to). I'm tired of seeing this stuff, but I've no energy or time to put it away. I keep thinking when I go back down to part time I'll be able to get it done, but that won't be until the end of JUNE. I can't wait that long. I need a weekend where I don't have to work or AngelFood or church commitments so that I can put this house back together. I feel like everything else in my life is getting my 100% except my husband and our life. I can't stand it because my heart is in my home. Everyday I leave at 7am I can't WAIT to get home. It makes it really hard to leave every day.

Please pray for me. I need a break. We're going to Florida in 18 days, and it can't come soon enough! However, I know I won't want to come home because I'll be coming back to working 46+ hours weeks. RRRrrrrrr!!!! Lord, please help me!

Starting to Dream about Gainesville....

So this weekend Katie and I discussed my future schooling and I have decided that starting this summer I will return to Bowling Green State University Firelands, in a full time capacity, in an effort to finish my Associate of Arts so that I can transfer to an actual 4 year university that is not BGSU or OSU. That being said I feel that form my perspective things are beginning to fall in line for a move to Gainesville, and I am in fact beginning to Dream of life outside of O-H-whatever.(I just can't say it)

So I would have to say the move is looking better and better.

Back to work.....I guess....maybe.....

Well, I went to the doctor to see about my ankle and he said that I was progressing as excepted and that it was basically up to me when I wanted to go back to work. So we decided on Monday the 21th, just to give me a little piece of mind and help me ankle heal a bit more. So as of Monday I will be back at work, I guess.

Thanks for all those who've prayed for me and I pray you will continue to pray for me.

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I'm tired

I'm really tired, so this won't be long.

Something exciting~today we had a family member (you know who you are, and we are SO grateful for your love, support, and motivation!) offer to pay for part of our rent for the duration of Mar's schooling should we choose to move to Gainesville. I told Mar that this is just another sign that this is what God wants us to do. Then I get home from work, and what do I find in the mail? The copy of the apartment finder booklet that I had requested over a week ago and had forgotten about! How odd is it that we would get an offer for our rent to be paid, and then get this in the mail on the same day?! So we started looking through the book and then online at apartments. In one way I'm excited, but in another I'm already tired of looking for options for if/when we decide to do this.

Mar goes back to the Orthopedic doctor tomorrow morning about his ankle. Please pray that the dr. says he can go back to work on Wednesday.

Please continue to pray for us!

Something Has to Change

So we have a HUGE, life changing decision that we need to make. We haven't had to face this kind of decision before, and in the grand scheme of life it's probably not so huge. But in our life thus far, it's Big!

A couple of weeks ago we found out that I have at least one symptom of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). Basically what it means is that we're going to have a hard time getting pregnant on our own, and will probably have to have fertility treatments. At this point in our life we aren't in the position to afford to have a baby. I know, I know, we'll never be able to afford to have a child. But we really can't afford it right now. We're barely making it as it is with just the two of us.

Now that I've grieved over the fact that babies aren't going to happen for us right now, I'm realizing that life is pretty blah. If we don't put forth the effort to make a change in our life now, this will be our life forever. Struggling every week to pay our bills, and not able to afford the things that are important to us.

God opened my eyes last week that the change that needs to be made will more then likely include us moving away from Ohio and the safety net that surrounds us. Of course this is thrilling to Marshall as our main option is to move to Florida. We already had plans to travel to Florida next month, so while we're there we're going to go to Gainesville and check into what it would take to transfer to the University of Florida.

Surprisingly, I'm actually excited about the possibility of moving. I don't know what God has in store for us, but I'm getting excited that there are options out there for us to live a better life. Please be praying for us as we seek His will for our life, and what He wants us to do next!

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